hey..erm..yea..today i'm blogging again..
mm..only because..i think..i've lost to "ai qing" again..
so devoted..so commited..so much time..
yet its again ..nothing..
nothing nothing nothing and nothing at alland for damn sake that present is stil in my hse..
to think the owner didnt want it..to think she said we got nothing to talk about..to think she said friends..to think she said treat each other as friends..to think she treated me as stranger..to think she practically rejected/avoided/ or whatever laa..the most feeling thrown into this relationship..the most hurtful one..the most killing blow..i dont know..darn i'm fucking stupid..dumbass..stupidass..whatever that is dumb/stupid..pig eh? guess i'm just a dumb pig to you..爱情, 真的比任何事还难..hard to find, hard to keep, to think people dont value it..hard to come by, hard to catch, hard to feel..right think so much i'm out of words..jesus christ..i think i'm drunk..
well..just wanna say..cherish the one beside you..
with you or whatever it is..
what the fuck..
"cherish" is another strong word..
other than "ifs" "maybe" yadayada..
YAY I'M FUCKING OUT OF HERE!!
AND
I'M FUCKING DEAD!
SEEYA!
Chiabanheng, Calvinn